Lets see... Was a successful night last night as I made $74.05 in a little under two hours. I am happy with that. Except I got an insult... well, I guess some say "that's not an insult!!!" but to ME it was an insult. One asked if I was a BBW. I AM NOT BBW. I work hard at my body. I may be a few lbs over, but not hugely. I do not have a hard 20 something year olds body, but a little in the middle. Oh well, 1 member out of hundreds...
Here's the not so good. I was drinking (of course) on cam. I went way beyond over my limit. My limit is a max of 3- 4 vodka coolers. I somehow had nine. That's in two hours. They went down like juice, and I didn't feel it. I don't think I was ridiculously drunk on cam, but when I logged off and stood up, WHAM! Hit me like a mac truck. The last time I threw up was 17 years ago. I know exactly when it was because I do NOT throw up. Its almost impossible for me to. Must be some psychological block that prevents me from throwing up, even if I stick my finger down my throat. (Nope, I would never make it as a bulimic.)
Last night I was praying to the porcelain God. NO problems throwing up. I spent two hours in the bathroom. probably the last 40 min were in the shower trying to control an anxiety attack between my periods of heaving. I have NO IDEA how I let it get so far. I am all about control. I must be in control all the time. That's part of the reason I do not do drugs or drink excessively. I think my anxiety attack in the shower last night was either brought on by the fact that I was actually doing what was impossible for me (throwing up), or the feeling of loss of control.
THE ONLY reason I do drink on cam is because it makes me relax and less inhibited. I like to get that little buzz going so my inhibitions go out the window and I can let the conservative part of me step aside. Generally though, I know my limit. Have no clue where my stop button was last night!.
The closer it gets to my surgery date, the more anxious I get though. I am scared to be honest.
JOURNEY OF A WEBCAM MODEL: This will be a commentary on my foray into the webcam world. It will be explicit with graphic descriptions and foul language. Consider yourself warned. I hope to provide as much information as possible for any other people wanting to try this out
hey, ive been reading your blog... very interesting. i am a camgirl myself and omg, i get so discourage sometimes!
ReplyDeleteI joined MFC three days ago and have gone on for about an hour at a time the past three night. So far I've made about $400. People sometimes have thrown insults or said hey you're making money you can't have your bra on. Etc. or that I need help at this because I take it slow and don't immediately get down to business but I've found I've made much more $ If I drag things out a bit and kind of tease for awhile. I've also never asked for tips or amounts for flashes etc, I just let them tip if they want. I think more money is made by keeping several guests in your group chat and keeping it going as long as you can. I also haven't ever taken anything off in public chat and just talk to the members in there and interact and usually within a few mins someone starts a group chat
ReplyDeleteCONGRATS anon #2:) You must be young and very attractive?? I hope you continue with success, thats AWESOME! ANon #1, I feel you.. I get so discouraged sometimes as well..
ReplyDeleteI just went on MFC for the first time last night. I'm 41 and still have weight to lose. I'm doing this primarily for myself, to prove that I can do it at this age and still turn guys on :) I was only on for 75 minutes and got overwhelmed with all the popup messages all over my screen, trying to figure out how to block mean people, etc.- I only made $2.50. Wah! I have got to come up with a system and a method here.
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