Time for update

Time for an update..  I have gone on twice in two weeks.  Made Approx $80 the first time in a couple hours and $120 the second time in an hour and half.  THANKS to my reg's on the second one.  I think I popped on one other time for about 5-10 min and just did not have the patience that night.

I am going for the surgery on Tuesday.  SCARED SHITLESS.  I will have SIX weeks of no camming, how the heck will I make it without even the tiny extra $$ I get off it?  I also worry about the first time I insert anything in there. 

I was wrong about the "vaginal tightening" being an option.  Its  mandatory with what I am getting done apparently.   Here is the "list" of surgery.
rectocele repair
cystocele repair
Vaginal Hysterectomy (tubes, uterus, cervix)
Bladder lift
Endo removal
and Urethral sling

All because of #1. Child birth stretching things and #2. Endometriosis damaging things.  Anyway, I just hope it all goes nice and smooth with minimal pain.  Sure wish I could get a boob job and tummy tuck while under:)

I plan to have my last "hurray" camming tonight.  Not going on till a bit later.  Going to be a tough night though.. I find Fridays usually suck, as well as the LAST day before the pay all the "big guns" come out.  Top models do a final push before the pay period.  Will have to stick it out and not get discouraged and sign off after 5 min or an hour, gotta put my two hours in regardless.  Guess I am off to the liquor store after work for some coolers:)

good night and not so good:)

Lets see... Was a successful night last night as I made $74.05 in a little under two hours. I am happy with that.  Except I got an insult... well, I guess some say "that's not an insult!!!"  but to ME it was an insult.  One asked if I was a BBW.  I AM NOT BBW.  I work hard at my body.  I may be a few lbs over, but not hugely.  I do not have a hard 20 something year olds body, but a little in the middle.  Oh well, 1 member out of hundreds...

Here's the not so good.  I was drinking (of course) on cam.  I went way beyond over my limit.  My limit is a max of 3- 4 vodka coolers.  I somehow had nine.  That's in two hours.  They went down like juice, and I didn't feel it.  I don't think I was ridiculously drunk on cam, but when I logged off and stood up, WHAM!  Hit me like a mac truck.  The last time I threw up was 17 years ago.  I know exactly when it was because I do NOT throw up.  Its almost impossible for me to.  Must be some psychological block that prevents me from throwing up, even if I stick my finger down my throat.  (Nope, I would never make it as a bulimic.)

Last night I was praying to the porcelain God.  NO problems throwing up.  I spent two hours in the bathroom.  probably the last 40 min were in the shower trying to control an anxiety attack between my periods of heaving.  I have NO IDEA how I let it get so far.  I am all about control.  I must be in control all the time.  That's part of the reason I do not do drugs or drink excessively.  I think my anxiety attack in the shower last night was either brought on by the fact that I was actually doing what was impossible for me (throwing up), or the feeling of loss of control. 

THE ONLY reason I do drink on cam is because it makes me relax and less inhibited.  I like to get that little buzz going so my inhibitions go out the window and I can let the conservative part of me step aside.  Generally though, I know my limit.  Have no clue where my stop button was last night!.

The closer it gets to my surgery date, the more anxious I get though.  I am scared to be honest.

Another great one

Haven't been able to post lately.  I did go on another time and did very well in an hour and a half again.  AGAIN, its thanks to the REGULAR tippers, without them, I would have been there hours! lol.  So all in all, I only went on 2x in two weeks.  I am really slacking bad.  My hearts not in it again.  I really really need the $$ in a bad way, but cannot seem to motivate myself to get on there.

#1. Its way to hot to use my pole.  Its like trying to hold on to a greased pig.  There would sure be some wrecks if I tried to pole dance in this heat, even with the air on.
#2. I am just not "feeling it".  If I am not in the mood, the customers know it.

I am getting REALLY nervous about my upcoming surgery and am so tempted to cancel it.  Sure would be nice to be able to get some cosmetic surgery done at the same time.  Little tuck there, lift there, fill there.

I HAVE been watching cams even though I have not been working.  I REALLY enjoy the couple cams.  Hetero, bi, gay - any couple is quite entertaining.  I love to read what the members and guests in the room write.. Of course, there is always  "FEET BB"  every few lines.  My girlfriend and I have made a joke of that and usually will text each other out of the blue once in awhile "show me ur feet bb..mmmmmm" 

Well, back to work I go...sigh

WOW

What a night last night!  Was on for a total of 1 hour, 15 min and made double my goal.  Thanks to one main regular.  I am a little hung over today, so I may take tonight to send off vids to the tippers and relax, but gotta get back at it tomorrow.  I made a mess!!!

I think I orgasmed about 6x and my floor was like a lake.   Man I needed that.  Will write more later, gotta head to work.

virus

Believe it or not I am STILL SICK!!!!  Apparently it takes 4-6 weeks to run its course! ack!... I plan on returning to camming on Monday, sick or not.  I have to earn some money in a bad way.  I am scheduled for surgery on Sept. 4th and I will be off for six weeks...

Here's the story. I have endometriosis which causes lots of woman problems.  Heavy bleeding, cramping, extreme pain etc etc.  I have had three surgeries already for it, which have caused some damage.  I am going in to get a partial hysterectomy (uterus out), endo surgery, bladder lift, urethral sling and the best part???

The Gyno was explaining all the surgeries he would be doing and he said "Oh, I offer this to all woman who get a hysterectomy.  I do a vaginal tightening, and tell them they will be born again virgins"  WHAT!!!!!!  I think my jaw dropped open.  I was thinking, but I am NOT loose, but then again, TIGHTER is always better.  hmmmmmm.... So I asked what the risks were.  He said, "well, it could end up TOO tight, but I use a dilator during surgery to try and prevent that."  WTF? TO TIGHT? is that even a bad thing? haha.

The one huge downfall he let me know is, when you get a partial hysterectomy "your vagina will be shortened".. .My eyes went huge and I proclaimed "BUT I AM ALREADY TO SHORT!!!!"  So now, instead of 6 inches tops, I am going to have to go with 5-5.5 inches for insert able length.  OH MY GOD!  Just great.  Guess I may be resigned to strictly toys for the rest of my life unless they come up with some kind of "stopper" that can be put on the end of a cock to prevent it from going to deep no matter how hard the thrusting. 

I will report how Monday goes.  Praying for lots of paying members in my room and lots and lots of tokens coming my way.  HA!  funny girl huh?

3 am tea and musings

I am up, its 3am.  I should be sleeping.  I had taken three days holidays last week and was quite excited to get to work at the camming.  HA!  I am on day 12 or 13 (lost track), of being super sick.  Went to the hospital twice over the weekend.  Oh what a week.  Bladder infection, viral cold and then wonderful Aunt Flow decides to come for a visit.  I haven't been on my pole in ages and I am feeling bloated, crampy and just plain disgusting.

I did manage to do SOMETHING fun on my days off.  My neighbour has a boat, and he took me out for hours upon hours.  I even donned a bikini for the occasion which I haven't done since I was about 15.  I am hoping I can start anew after the next pay period.  I think this may very well be the first time I have earned 0 $$ for a pay period.  I did not even cam ONCE.

I have an appointment scheduled with my gyno for Thursday to tell him my decision on surgery.  I have decided to go ahead with my 4th endometriosis surgery and get ablation and a urethra sling in at the same time... Which means SIX WEEKS of no camming.  I have had 3 surgeries in the past for endo, which also caused damage to my urethra.  I cant cough, laugh or sneeze hard without peeing.  How sexy is that? 

Well, with being as sick as I am, I guess I could really get the "pee" pervs turned on.  Get on cam, hack my brains out and pee.  Speaking of.... I have found MANY men out there have a thing for watching a woman pee.  Whats up with that???   I have gone on skype for $25 and peed, I have made "pee" videos.  Hell, how easy is that?  Its something we all gotta do, if I can make money off of it, what the hell.

I don't waste an opportunity either.  When I was out on the boat, we stopped at an island.  I had to pee, so I hiked up a ways to find a secluded spot.  I thought to myself, "oh!  peeing outside, cant waste it!"  Used my phone to video myself so I have some material for the next person that wants to tip for a pee vid. 

Well, off to try and sleep again before another work day.

if its not one thing......

Its another...grrrr... So, I went back to work on Thursday.  Tried at 7, no tips in a half hour, so logged off till 8.. Went back on at 8, stuck my goal at 1200 tokens, and made it within an hour and a half!  Funny thing about it.  I felt like shit, so really did not want my face on cam.  I ended up putting the pussy up for almost 98% of the time!  Right off the bat I had great room numbers.  Funny how that works huh?

With the wonderful success I figured I would work Friday night, and twice on Saturday to make up some $$ before the payday.  Friday, at the day job, I had a tickle in my throat.  Friday night, felt like shit, went to bed early, figuring I would work my ass off on Saturday.  I spent Saturday, Sunday and Monday in bed for the most part.  Fever, cough, sneezing etc etc.  So, the finger is less painful, but I am sicker then a dog.

To top it all off, I had scheduled wed, thurs and friday as Holiday days from the day job.  So, my holidays begin tomorrow, and I am sitting here all feverish and sniffly. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrr.  Okay, thats all I can write, I have to go lay down...sigh....

real sex?

I decided to address Eddie's comment here.  He suggested I could walk out on to the street and basically beckon for a man.  To funny!  Here is the reality.  On cam, I wear sexy clothes, tons of make up, and six inch heels (which I cannot walk in, for the record).  If  I went outside like that in my town, I would be branded the town prostitute.. lol.  On cam, I can hide my flaws, such as my pot belly.

The other thing.  Texting and emailing is a whole different ballgame.  I am brave!  In person I am actually kinda shy and I babble out of nervousnous.  I am also picky.  I have TRIED a couple times for the "real" thing and I gotta say, it was a HUGE disappointment.  Do all men over 40 only last under 5 min and then are pretty much done?  What happened to foreplay? is it a long forgotten art?  Or am I abnormal that I could go and go and go?  I looked up the definition of nymphomaniac.  This is what I found:

A condition that makes a woman have sexual intercourse with as many men as possible without having a lasting relationship.

Thats not me.  I do not want TONS of men.  I want ONE good one that I can see on a regular basis.  I dont want to move in or be married at this time, just ONE I can date and get off with a few times a week.  So I guess in a sense, I do want the "relationship" status without the living together.  I want exclusive (to many diseases out there).  The problem is, I have to find somebody that has my sexual appetite and can actually go and go or at least be able to get it up again soon after.  I am thinking that is just to much to ask.  At my age, the men just do not have the stamina.  NO WAY in hell will I get a "boy toy" though. 

I guess I have to stick to camming.  At least my hitachi doesnt finish before me.  Speaking of which, I really really gotta get my ass in gear and get to work.  (Eddie, I did respond to your comment in the comments section).

dam it dam it. So far, my week is not going as planned.  I am typing with nine fingers and its painstakingly slow.  I broke up a dog fight yesterday and got my finger severley bit.  THANK GOD for artificial nails.  My artificial and real nail got ripped off.  Its not pretty, a mangled mess.  Needless to say, my plan to work all week is NOT starting off good.  Its going to be another rough month financially:(

Not sure if I mentioned this already but as of May i have been camming for one year.  Time is not going slow and my window of opportunity to get what I can from this is dwindling.  I am only getting older after all!  On the other hand, I really would like to have REAL sex instead of toys every once in awhile.  Think I have to arrange that. Gotta stay "in the mood" and real cock would go a long way towards that! lol.

OH and I am so envious!  a friend bought a sex swing.  THAT looks like so much fun!.  Not worth it for me to buy one unless I could incoorporate it into my show somehow,,,mmmmmmmmm

another update

So, I went back to MFC.  I made goal in an hour and half and then went over a bit.  500 people in my room during the show.  Somebody posted in my comments "how do you get so many?"  I am going to answer her here.  ITS A FLUKE!  lol.  What I have figured out.  On mfc, I get 10-30 people in my room while I am just sitting there talking.  If I want to get more people in, I put the camera between my legs, within 2 min the numbers start climbing.  Sometimes it works great, and I get new tippers that will stay, sometimes it doesnt work and when they see  I am not actually at the "show" part, they leave. 

The reason I had such a high room number was because it was during my show.  My regular tippers got me to goal, then when show started a few more chipped in.  As soon as I have my first orgasm, the numbers drop like flies.  They dont know I dont DO just one orgasm.  I am good for at LEAST 3 or 4. So, to answer your question.  Room numbers on MFC for models that are not in the top 10 work like this:  It fluctuates as you show your body.  Members are looking for free stuff.  They want to see a model cum for free.  It IS called MY FREE CAMS, even though WE want to make the money, about 80% (just a guess) on there do not tip.  The top models are all in their 20's with hard bodies (as a general rule).  The younger the better.   I have my reg's that usually try to get me to goal, and if I am lucky, I may pick up another "fan" in the night that will come back.

I think the other "trick" to camming is this:  The key is to have "fans" that will be there when your on.  In order to gain a lot of fans, you have to put the time in.  HOURS every day at the same time without fail.  I am sporadic.  I am pooped after working all day, and half the time, I say "fuck it, I will do it tomorrow".  When I was actually camming 5 days a week I made my goal for earnings ALMOST all the time. 

I have NO patience lately.  I get on for a half hour to an hour, and if I dont have any members in my room, I give up.  I guess I want instant gratification.  I've decided to get my ass in gear and come Monday, start going on every night - members or not, I gotta put the time in!

Been awhile!

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New site etc

Well, I feel I may have to give up on new site.  I will go on Wednesday night and if there is no new tippers, I am outta there.  Its just taking so long to take off it seems.  A lot of members (with 0 tokens, because the cool feature is you can see how many tokens they have!).  Anyhoo, I will be returning to MFC regardless of the whole camscore situation.  At least I have more of a chance there to make money:)  Will update in about two weeks upon my return.

Break Needed!

I have decided to take a couple weeks off camming.  Its going to kill me to not have that extra $$$, but I am feeling burnt out again.  I am feeling like "oh shit, I gotta work, I dont want to!!!".  I am sure those feelings come across on cam so I decided I may as well just take a few weeks to recharge.  Sometimes you just need to do that so you can go back refreshed and ready.

I have taken a break from MFC for a few weeks now, and I plan to not go back until my pole dancing lessons are complete and I have a routine.  I am going back to MFC with a new mindset.  I WILL NOT make friends and be the social butterly.  Making friends leads to no tipping or me telling them NOT to tip.  I will bite my tongue and not tell people they cant tip - after all, that IS what I am there for.  Must learn to treat this as a business and push for tips and quit making friends:).

So, thats the plan for now.

Ramblings

First off, about the new site.  It is still in the early stages with a lot of kinks to work out.  The problem is getting members.  Not only paying members, but models who will be on line.  Over 70 have signed up now but seems to be only 3 or 4 main ones that go on line regularly.  The site is also great for couples or men, and tries to have as few rules as possible.  I do really hope it takes off as there are a lot of cool features on it and has potential to be big.  I absolutely LOVE that you can block guests entirely.  Not only mute them, but block them from coming in your room.  Another great feature is that you can set your room to ONLY allow tippers in, for e.g. Your room is not open to anyone unless they tip 10 tokens to get in. 

Since it is new, you have to be prepared to sit there for hours with nobody in your room:)

Now, since I figure its been approximately 9 months of me being in the "cam business" I figured I had seen/heard it all and knew all fetishes.  Well, I was wrong.  I know about bbw fetishes but what I did not know was the "feeder" fetish.  Wow.  I watched a show on it last night.  Apparently it is actually growing in popularity.  I know one thing for sure, if a member decides he wants to start sending me money to watch me eat I will NOT go there!  I am trying so dam hard to get rid of the extra I have as it is. 

One thing I have found out about myself that is new.  I LOVE TO SHOP!  I think part of the fun for me going on cam is just to wear sexy outfits and 5 inch heels that I otherwise would not be able to wear out.  My town is a jeans and T-shirt kinda town, so if I went out dressed as I do on cam I would probably be labelled the town slut.  Imagine if "they" find out what I do at night for fun and a little extra cash.  That is one thing I want to address.  If you are thinking of getting into camming, you have to realise that it is always a possibility.  No matter how hard you try to keep it private (as in blocking your city/country) there is still going to be a chance that your secret gets out.

I have thought a lot about it.  I worry a lot about it.  The worst case scenario would be I lose my day job.  I don't "*think* that would happen, but of course you never know.  The other (TO ME) worst case is the fact that people would talk.  Yes, they would say nasty things behind my back about being a dirty cam whore, prostitute, slut etc etc.  The thing I try to keep in mind is #1. YES I am somewhat selling my body for money BUT #2.  I am not having ANY physical contact with another person, I am basically having sex with myself but with a paying out of sight audience.    The great debate:  Is camming prostitution?  I am of the opinion that its not.  They call us "cam models".  We are "modelling " our bodies in a very intimate fashion.  Yea, yea, its porn, so be it, but its safe porn with no exchanges of bodily fluids or even person to person contact.

Anyone want to weigh in on their thoughts please write in the comments section.  Do you consider cam modelling a form of prostitution?

Been awhile!

Its been a looong time since I posted.  Figured I am due.  Well, where to begin.  My adventures on MFC are pretty much the same.  Nothing new and exciting.  Up and down like a ..... well you know.  The inconsistency there is killing me.  Camscore, that's another thing I really DO NOT LIKE.  I finally was ALMOST at the 2000 mark, than took a huge hit, dropping down to 1010.  I quit.  It bugs the shit out of me. 

I have signed up on a new site.  When I say NEW I mean SUPER new, as in just launched.  The link for that is www.myfreexxxwebcam.com.  HUGE potential on this site once it takes off I think.  There are still some bugs and glitches to work out but the admin is easily accessible and extremely helpful.  The pay is awesome.  It goes like this:  Top 1-5 get 80%.  6-10 gets 75% 11-15 gets 70% and beyond that, everyone gets 65%.  MFC pays out 50%.

There are only around 60 models signed up so far, and not many members, but its slowly getting there.  I will be concentrating all my efforts on that site right now and giving MFC a HUGE break.  There is also another fairly new one that I may give a try www.chaturbate.com.  It certainly is extremely difficult to build a client base when you can only dedicate 2 hours a night at most.

I have to say.  I have met some amazing people.  Who would have thought?  Mind you, that's me, being the social butterfly and making on line friends instead of treating them like customers.  I am certainly NOT going to make a living at this camming, but I will say, the extra money is awesome.  I have become a clothes whore.  Wait, I have become a clothes whore, shoe whore, g string whore.  I have become... *gasp*  a GIRL!

OH!  Another thing I have taken up.  Pole dancing (for fitness) lessons.  I even bought a pole.  Funny story that one.  I got the pole and my friend and I set it up.  Supposedly its portable and can support up to a 220lb load weight without having to screw it in.  We swung on that thing like a couple of orangutans for about a half hour with no issue.  Other than the whining "oh my arms, oh my legs, ouch ouch".  Later that night, after have a few drinks to dull the pain of the aching muscles I decided to try dancing with the pole, do a couple of swings and film it so I could have a look at whether I could pull "sexy" off.

Turn cam on.  Begin slowly walking around pole, concentrating on walking in the 5 inch heels and NOT falling, tripping or generally making an ass of myself.  Shaking the booty, do a successful swing landing somewhat gracefully on my feet, begin going the other way.  Picture this:  I am mid swing, so, the fastest, hardest part and WHAM, pole comes down with me on it.  Yup.  I got it on vid!  It is absolutely hilarious.  For a mere $19.99 I can email it to you.  HAHA.   

I will try to write more regularily in this blog.  Tonight, I am off to strip club to see if I can actually learn something like, well you know, graceful moves, fluidity, sexy, all that stuff that just does NOT come natural to me.

where to start?

Well now.  I just do not know where to start.  So, I will start with a pathetic story.  I had great plans to do a video for one of my FAVORITE regulars (now friend as well).  I thought I would attempt to dance.  Well.  Went to a girlfriends and asked her to practice some dance moves with me.  Did I mention I have two left feet and am an out of shape 41 year old?  Yea.  I think I managed about 20 min of dancing (macarena and the twist) and pulled something in my hip.  This was over a WEEK AGO!!!!  I am still gimping along. 

Also.  I have received a gift from my amazon wishlist quite awhile back.  Not sure if I mentioned it already here.  It was a wonderful surprise to receive the hot red high heels and Lacy bra.  Well, that was at least a month or more ago.  The purchaser asked me to please give him an address where he would save on the shipping so I gave him my work address (clearly not thinking).  A box arrived on Friday.  Get a phone call "hey, you have a package here".  I immediately felt my face go red.  I forgot, we must KNOW what is in package to get it across the border, and I had no clue so I had to ask her to open the box.  She giggled and claimed my packages were so much fun to open.  AAAACCCKKKK. could my face go any redder.  I am stammering and trying to figure out what the hell to say.  WHY am I getting packages at work without knowing what they are, whom they are from etc.

I thank the Lord that the girl that handles the packages is open minded or I probably would have fainted from extreme embarrassment.  FOUR hitachi attachments were in the box, and apparently one looked "really scary".  lol.   Another package arrived shortly after, which again, she had to open because I had no clue what it was.  A waterproof sex blanket "squirter approved!".  NOW that is awesome.  I ended up spilling the beans as to why I had got these packages.  For some odd reason, I trust this woman though.  I wouldn't DREAM of telling anyone else within the company, but I think us "not of the normal set" type woman can tell a kindred spirit.  Ya, I know, lame way to put it, but cant think of a better way to describe it.

So, part two of the story.  Purchaser of above gifts wanted to do a pvt.  We scheduled it for last night.  I had to down a bottle and a half of wine before hand because quite frankly, the double pronged black attachment was REALLY scary looking.  Kinda reminds me of some huge beetle that you would see in a National Geographic.  I have to put the story on hold.  Time to head home and get ready for another night. lol.. Will continue tomorrow.

A quick note:  I watched raven skye last weekend and she is freaking amazing.  LOVE LOVE LOVE her personality.  Check her out.  She is fun.

update

I do not have a lot to update on as I have not been on much.  ALTHOUGH, I had one hilarious night where I had my topic as "highest tipper gets to pick my name for a week!".  I now have a new model name for one whole week.  I was VERY nervous as one of the members (a real jokester!) had a name picked out that would have been quite embarrassing.  The link to my profile wont work right now as I have my name changed for a bit.  I will write more, but am at the "day job" and have to get to work!

up and down

Its been a wild ride so far!  Last pay period was $653  - this one I barely worked (was burnt out).  I made just over a hundred dollars and had one day left to earn.  I went on Saturday night and the first hour, nothing.  I was getting discouraged and ready to log off when it started to pick up.  I HAD A YELLOW WALL!!!!  It was awesome.  Yellow wall meaning they tipped and tipped and tipped so my chat area was full with tips.  It was a rush.

I am finding it a little difficult to keep thinking of ideas to keep my room interesting.  I want them to come to my room BEFORE the show and have fun so I try to think of interesting things each time but its getting difficult.  I have met so many amazing people and made actual friendships - which is probably a big no-no.  I end up giving my regulars shit when they tip because I get pissed that they are spending their money on me. lol.  I must learn to stop that, but it really does upset me.  Of course, it seems to be the regulars that fund most of the show, with new ones coming in and tipping small amounts during.

Will try and write more if i can get some darn time!

ha!

Have not updated for awhile.  Its been much of the same.  Hit and miss.  Some amazing days, followed by shitty days.  I do want to write about my "comedy act".  One Saturday, while the weather was still warm, I proceeded to get extremley drunk on cam.  I was outside, I hula hooped, roped naked, tried to walk in sky high heels, got covered in dirt and had flies landing on me. I even have a video of it!

Then, this Tuesday, I went over to a friends and we set up our eliptical machines next to eachother.  I decided to go on cam.  We did amazing.  We had a topic of  "tip 10 tokens for slow, 20 for fast".  Also had a goal for topless excersize.  We drank and smoked while excersizing.  What a classy bunch we are. lol.  Last night, I wanted to work out again (all this drinking is starting to take a toll on the body).  We did horrible, but I really did get a great workout in.  The tips that DID come were for FAST.  I was sweating like crazy and am a little on the sore side today.

yippy!

Last night was amazing!  Little over a hundred in about 2 hours!  I had a blast.  I gotta say, my room is way to much fun when I get the members in that like to drink, joke and just generally "party".  One thing that I do that I really feel has paid off or is starting to pay off - ANY tip over 50 gets a video.  I have had people tell me that that is way to cheap, but I consider it PR.  It is paying off now.  The members feel appreciated that their tips get them SOMETHING they can see AFTER the show and they come back. 

So I have this new thing I do to try and appeal to ALL watchers.  There are members that like to see zoomed in, and members that like to see zoomed out.  What I do is I will get the suction dildo onto the mirror for the first orgasm.  Put the camera right on the mirror so its really close up.  Then, they get the close up of the whole riding the toy as well as the squirt.  My next one, I lay back on my back and zoom out so that the members that like to see the "cum face" get to see that.  I gotta say, I am certainly enjoying this second "job".  Although, there are times where I am like, OMG, I dont feel like going on right now, but once I am on there and I get the fun people coming into my room, the mood quickly changes.

I also have done a few skype shows.  Now, the skype shows do take a lot of time.  I am going to try not to do to many of those as the time I am on skype I could be on MFC drumming up new members.  Anyhoo, just one last thing:  I love MFC!

quickie

Just a quick one.  I have learned something invaluable (i think) for new models.  DO NOT GIVE UP... The first hour generally SUCKS for me, with minimal members in my room, you just have to stick it out because the second hour is when the stuff seems to happen.  Will blog more about it when I get some time!

WHAT A WEEKEND!!!!!!

I had a HELLUVA weekend.  It was amazing.  I was so far from my goal it wasnt even funny.  Weekend came and WAM.  I am up to $452!  Most of it was yesterday.  I had soooooo much fun.  Had some really large tippers and I did an outside show in the back of a pick up truck.  I had a wee bit to much to drink as well, and with the wonderful heat beating down on me and an empty stomach, I was a bit of a silly willy.

I excersized on cam on my eliptical and hula hooped.  Of course the countdown was to do it naked.  Man, if my neighbours ever saw me out there they would have a heart attack.  Had the hose for cooling off, and of course, my bikini that is see through when wet.  No meanies made an appearance for the whole weekend either.  I also made it to #11 in the most popular rooms yesterday.  Thats HUGE for me.

Needless to say, I am floating on cloud nine today as well as a little raw.  Met some more wonderful funny people and hopefully they will continue to come to my room to visit.

been awhile!

Have not updated for awhile because there has not been much to update.  Basically, the same ole, same ole.  No rhyme or reason, some days are amazing, some are terrible.  Nothing new and exciting has happened to report.  Other then, I have got a few new members, so it is a very very slow process, at least for ME to get "fans".  I am happy with it though.  I am just average in body type (to me anyway) and yet I still have people that come to see "me".  I am not changing how I do things, I just go on there and be me.   The majority of the time I have a lot of fun - at least when the members are talkative and joking etc.  When the room is quiet, it drives me nuts.

I am still enjoying it, which is the main thing.  If I do not feel like going on, I have just not been logging in.  Its a waste of time.  If your not in the mood, it will show and then what fun is it for members to be in your room.  Tomorrow is Monday, and i have taken 3 days off so I really gotta get my butt in gear.  I enjoy actually watching MFC on the weekends and being an observer. lol. 

oh fickle mfc:)

well last two times I've been on I have made $198 total.  Almost as much as I made in the last pay period.  The ups and downs of mfc I tell ya.  I do have to say, if it werent for my few regulars, I dont know how I would make any money.  I love them.  They come in, they talk, tip and make me laugh.  We have so much fun.  I had a blast last night.  My goal was $75.  Made that AND did my show all within two hours, amongst MUCH laughter.  Hitachi is still a wonderful wonderful thing, but it IS taking longer and longer.  I have to say though, my very last orgasm last night was freaking phenominal.  When I went to stand up my legs were weak and shaking.  Ahhhhh... LOVE those.

update

Time for another update, although there is not much to update about.  I made a whopping $200 (and something).  I do have something funny though.  Some member popped into my room and asked me if my calves were REAL?  I was like wtf??????  I think my jaw dropped to the floor.  I was like "ahhh, real? what else would they be?"  Other members started saying how some people get implants in their calves.  Go figure? 

I think I know what "part" of the problem is with me.  I have put on some weight and my self esteem is suffering for it.  I tend to try and hide the stomach when online and I am sure that self image feelings come through and it probably makes for a not so fun room.  Must get the fun back!